i wanted to blog.....
but i don't know how to start.....

Dear is starting work tomorrow, i don't want him to feel sad n stress.
But i have so many things to tell him.

For nine months since we are together, he did not work,

so whenever i'm free i can call him and we talk on the phone many times a day.
Now i have to wait till evening then i can talk to him :(

Hope he calls me when he's free and also immediately when he finish work.

And hope he can remember to do this everyday without fail.

Cried for many days, i can't get use to him working.
Crying over the phone, and he said he still haven't cry i cry already.

Sad what.. :(

My mum said something that makes me really sad yesterday.

She said he don't really met alot of people yet, and when he start working,

he can meet alot of people and may even get to know someone who's more suitable for himself..

Actually months ago, my mum said this to me before,

since then i keep thinking about this and always hope he can't find a job.

i'm so bad to have think this way :(

But i can't help it. Cause i don't want to lose him :(

Hope he remember ALL the promises he made to me and won't break it.

Somehow, recently, i got this feeling that i'm going to lose him soon.

But i never tell him cause i don't wish to stress him out even more.

Hope this feeling is wrong.

This few days, he try going out and spend time with me.

We went out last night to buy some stuffs.

Nothing to do so we took a picture of the sticker of the things we bought.

This afternoon as i don't have to work, he came to fetch me and we went out again.
Spent alot.. again... :(

Then we had Subway for dinner..

Last night in the car, we talk about many things,

things that will be happening few years later.
We hope to earn and save alot of money now, so we could have enough for our wedding.
Maybe its too early to say about all this, but i really thinks that time flies fast,
and wedding really needs alot of money.

And i felt that he is the one who can take care of me,
and love me for the rest of my life (tears start rolling down again)..

i hope that he can love me and give in to me like he always do,

even when we are married or even when we have kids next time.

Hopes everything goes well for us.