i'm wondering how important am i to u now...
i really really miss the times when u really really adore me so so much...
but all this are the past...
in the past, u have no problems waiting for me when picking me up from my house or workplace.. be it 30 mins, 40mins...u alwaz have the patience to always wait....
u used to surprise me with anyting u can think of...
always calling and messaging me how much you love me, greet me in the morning and no excuse in the night too...
but now... all this are gone... left are the impatience, lesser and lesser calls and messages..
more demandings, more temper shown.....
mayb one of the days when i no longer feel loved and feel very sad... i will leave....
pls dun blame me when the day comes.. cuz u already know.....

sometimes i'm just blur, i took the wrong side of the train. i took bus from the wrong side.. i can even meet u at the wrong side of the train station...
i never make any of this mistakes in the past....
maybe its because of the stress i have that cause me to make all this mistakes...
i just hope at the end of the day when i meet u i can feel the love u will give... but never would i thought instead of caring for me.. u scold me for making these mistakes... u rather worry about the money i spend on the trip than to ask how i feel...
now i'm telling u i really feel scared n lost on the day i took the wrong bus and ended at somewhere far....but to my surprise, to exchange scoldings from u....
in the past we always go out till after midnight.u never complain u are tired or u want to go home and sleep early.. but now u even say that u cant sleep early because u meet me...
sometimes i'm so worry cause i tink too much... so much so that i feel very very stress and sad... i told u b4 but u say its alright..but now, u will scold me...

i really miss the times how u love me so much....
why do i always feel hurt when i started to put feelings in.....
its always been like this...
i'm starting to give up hope....

:(


sometimes when u treat me coldly i got a sudden feeling to commit suicide....
i really feel very very sad whenever we are not in the right mood....